The night wind blew and whistles into the night. No clouds were in sight, only the twinkling stars and the bright moon that illuminates the night.
Charlotte was in her bedroom, alone just as she likes it. Her room was messy, but not messy in terms of clothes on the floor and the sorts of rubbish; instead her room was messy of books. Books on the floor, books on the bed, books in boxes, well she can’t help it to keep her room from being flooded with books. Her cabinet was full of it and not one more book could fit in. She asked her parents if she could have bookshelves. She was still waiting for the answer and so to cooperate with the books that she already has, not to mention the books she wanted to buy; Charlotte keeps her other books in stacks on the floor, on her study table, underneath furniture and at the corner of her bed. Books are Charlotte’s one way ticket to get away from the chaos in her house.
“Do you know what time it is now?!” a man exclaimed. The voice could be heard inside Charlotte’s room, the voice was muffled but still audible. The man’s voice belonged to Charlotte’s father.
“Looks like Mum’s home late. They’re going to fight again.” Charlotte mumbled under her breath, letting out a heavy sigh.
Charlotte was not new to the quarreling that seems to echo through the whole house. Although the house looked so friendly and happy from outside. It must have been the paint, because inside the house was far from being called happy. Charlotte would come home from school everyday having her smile turned upside down by the time she reaches home. She knows the routine and she knows she won’t like it one bit.
“I had work okay!” a woman exclaimed. The woman’s voice belonged to Charlotte’s mother
“Working hours stops at 5 in the afternoon and you’re back at 9?!” replied Dad.
Charlotte rolled her eyes and stuck in a pair of earphones from her iPod with some of her favorite country rock songs playing. She rest on her bed, turned her position towards her window and stared at the night sky with the moon in its fullest. While her parents were still arguing outside her bedroom, she begins to reminisce of how all of this had started.
3 years ago
The house was quiet; there was not a sound of laughter or a conversation. Dad was always in the extra bedroom, not in the bedroom with Mum. He looked miserable every time Charlotte sees him. Charlotte could hear sobbing from Dad when she was getting ready for tuition. She wanted to ask what was wrong, but she didn’t dare, yet she was still curious.
One afternoon, Dad picked her up from school which was shocking for Charlotte as this opportunity was seldom. In the car it was deadly quiet, only the revving of the engines was heard and nothing else. Soon, Dad broke the silence.
“Charlotte dear, you know I love you right?” Dad asked.
“Of course Dad, I know. What’s going on Dad?” Charlotte answered
“Charlotte, I want you to know, whatever happens, me and your Mum loves you.”
Charlotte’s head swam. Her mind was filled with the worse scenarios she could think of. Death? Illness? Adopted? Her heart was thumping against her chest. She was waiting for the answer for the whole week but yet she was afraid to hear it.
“Your Mum is…with another man” Dad said.
The world suddenly stopped for Charlotte. Dad was still talking, she listens but kept quiet. Her heart begins to beat slower. Her head throbs as she takes in everything that she heard from Dad. Their whole journey home, Charlotte sat still and kept quiet and in her head the word DIVORCE kept showing in bold letters. When they reached home, Charlotte walked straight into her bedroom and finally cried. A kind of news like that was a shock and the journey from school to back home was long enough for Charlotte to hold in. She cried into her pillow, thinking that such a thing couldn’t be true. But then she looked back at the events that happened the whole week, it was all coming together to point out one answer, scandal and to think to what it leads which is divorce, Charlotte would cry again. After a few minutes, Charlotte sat up and tried to stop crying. She kept telling herself that everything would be alright, but it was silly and impossible. As she reached for a tissue, a flashback of the past she had, her childhood life when her parents were always happy, always smiling and never fought and to think it won't happen again. That was it, her weakness. Charlotte cried even more.
Then, there was a knock on the door. Charlotte was sure not to make her sobbing audible. She sat up, went to a mirror and wiped her tears away, rubbing her face to make sure her face was not tear-stained. She calmed down and opened the door. Dad was there.
“Are you okay?” Dad asked calmly, knowing that she had been crying as he could see her eyes and nose were red, although no tears were visible.
“Yes...” her voice choked. Charlotte couldn’t hold it much longer, tears started to roll down her cheeks. Dad opens his arm and gave a hug. She cried in Dad’s arms. Dad explained to her that she needed to know the truth earlier before things get worse as he comfort her. Charlotte understood but she just couldn’t believe it.
Present day
Charlotte opened her eyes. Still gazing at the night sky and her list of country rock songs were about to end, a tear rolled on the side of her cheeks. It was half past ten and the quarreling had stopped with a slam of a door. She let out a sigh knowing, that day when she knew what was the cause of all that was happening was when things had never been the same again. It was also from that day on, Dad was more suspicious of Mum where ever she goes or what ever she does and the relationship between father and daughter became stronger from then on.
Posted in Hidden Beneath The Smile, The Storyteller's Series
I recently watched the 3rd Narnia movie, through out the whole movie it reminds me of The Lion King, because of Aslan i guess. *sigh* Lion King, LOVE THAT MOVIE!
Posted in Movie Life, Random Strikes
3 Times Arena. Same Place, Same Scene, Different People
Posted in Dream, Life's Experience, Me and My Life
Some people labeled people who watch or a fan of Star Trek a "geek", but no readers. We have a term for people who watch or a fan of the Enterprise. It's called "TREKKIE"
Though Star Trek enthusiasts preferred Trekker, other preferred Trekkie. The original Spock, Leonard Nimoy once attempt to set things right with the different terms and that the correct term was Trekker.
A documentary i watched on TV about the terms Trekkie and Trekker, what do they mean for the fans. Some stated that Trekker are the ones "walking with us", while Trekkies are the ones that simply sits and watch Star Trek.
Gene Roddenberry (R.I.P) the creator of the Star Trek went to a convention and used the term "Trekkies", a fan then stood up from the crowd and shouted to correct him that it was " Trekker". Gene replied "No, it's Trekkies. I should know - i invented the thing" Well, that's so true, he is the creator of Star Trek and who was that fan that stood up had to go against him, the fan is just a fan not Gene. Oh well..in that case i would rather choose the term Trekkie.
What made me watch it? Have you ever watched Eminem's We Made You music video? That what made me want to watch Star Trek movie. I confess, every time Spock appears on the TV it reminds me of Eminem's version. And i'll laugh that's for sure. But it what make me want to watch it more! Thank that to Eminem. I enjoyed the movie and i wanted more!
I've been planning to get the episode series and watch it during my free time. Problem is, i can't find the full series. I don't want to download it from the internet, it'll just cause problems with the computer so it's a no fun. I want to watch it so bad! Maybe i can learn to speak Klingon....
(Spock's second name is unpronounceable by human therefore never revealed =P )
I knew the new Spock seems so familiar and..ehem..cute =P And then i Googled...and that's him in real life with the Vulcan greeting!!
I can't do the Vulcan hand sign..YET! i want to do it so bad! It's like everyone i know can do it and i CAN'T!!! i taped my finger over night and i still can't get it =(
I promised myself that if i can make it with the Vulcan hand sign i would watch Star Trek and become a Trekkie. Trekkie wouldn't be complete without the Vulcan hand sign!! (still taping my fingers together HAHA)
Oh and look what i found that is simply illogical for Spock to do.....or maybe not
And thought you might want to know, some celebs and few famous people that is a Trekkie. And few in the list are:
Megan Fox. Daniel Craig. Whoopi Goldberg. Angelina Jolie. Tom Hanks. Eddie Murphy. Ben Stiller. Robin Williams. Frank Sinatra. Brad Paisley. Pharrell Williams. Al Gore. Barack Obama. Ronald Regan. Arnold Schwarzenegger ("i'll be back"). Stephen Hawking. Dwayne Johnson (The Rock). Sir Richard Branson ( founder of the Virgin brand). and more.
Posted in Life's Experience, Me and My Life, Movie Life, Music, Random Strikes
Charlotte squint her eyes hoping that there would be a vacant table in the distance. Scanning over the crowd of the cafeteria she finally found one, a nice setting at the corner with an outdoor view. Charlotte grabbed the hand of Nikki with her free hand while the other hand was balancing the cafeteria tray. She dragged Nikki through the crowd, passing by greetings and showing her smile that says “Hello”, pleading to walk quickly before someone takes the table. They were quick but unfortunately not quick enough. At the same time as they reached the table, a group of three boys reached the table as well.
“**Letty...” said he boy in the middle.
“Joe...” Charlotte said as she looked at him eye to eye.
“You know this is a big table just for the two of you.” Joe said raising an eyebrow. He was wearing the school’s varsity jacket, all royal blue and yellow. He has dirty blonde hair which is always messy, with a few strands hanging over his blue eyes.
“Well duh! I was going to ask you if you and your guys want to sit with us. What were you thinking anyway?” Charlotte questioned him.
“Oh, Uhh.. Nothing nothing. Yeah okay, sure. There no other place left in this cafeteria anyways.” said Joe, leaving an awkward laugh at the end of his sentence.
“Smile Charlotte!” said Adam again, who suddenly took out his camera.
“Do you have to take that out every time Adam? It’s seriously getting annoying.” complained the other boy. He wore a simple grey t-shirt and black cargo pants. His short black hair didn't block his view through his pair of spectacles . He had a pair of headsets around his neck, the wire of the headsets led into his pocket where one of his many iPod(s) would be connected to it. He was carrying his usual Mac laptop under his arms. Need any help with computers? Searching for the latest songs? It’s wise to go to him. He is Ian Lucas
“True that. Hey Ian!” Nikki greeted him. Nikki, a girl of her age she was rather short. But small things come with big surprises. She has long wavy brown hair tied up into a ponytail which reveals her mesmerizing green eyes Her personality seems too much to ask for, with the tons of sarcasm, has the best wits in the class, a party girl, quite a shopaholic, very random at times and absolutely 100% awesome. Awesome was her game and she wished it would be in her name.
“Okay, can we just get a seat?” Charlotte muttered than smiled.
They all sat down at the table, finally eating their lunch. Nikki’s lunch looked more like a dessert menu. Charlotte had the peas and potato wedges. Ian had the sandwich and his regular apple juice. Joe had the day’s special soup, chunks of different vegetables bobbled up and down in the red soup. It looked hideous but smelled tempting. Adam had the waffles and a can of coke. He took a picture of his lunch before he started eating it.
“Alright Adam, hand it in. That camera of yours, come on” Charlotte put out her hand at Adam who was busy drinking the last drop of coke in the can.
“Here”
The whole group finished their food and gathered around Charlotte looking through the pictures Adam took. Joe made jokes that made everybody laughed. Ian wanted to copy the picture into his Mac. Nikki kept being random with her comments on the pictures. Adam laughed along with them as Joe pointed out a picture of Ian with his nose being just centimeters from his Mac laptop screen.
These people are Charlotte’s best friends; her group basically holds almost all the different types of student in the school. She felt so lucky to have them and in a moment like this she wish it would go on and never end. Just like a picture that doesn’t move after it’s been taken, it just stays the way it is. If she were to take a picture of this moment, Charlotte would frame and hang it up on her wall in her bedroom. To wake up and see it as a first sight, see a girl in the middle of the picture with dark brown wavy hair, blue eyes and a smile that was true to the heart, a picture that would make her smile even in a house full of gloom.
** Letty - a nickname of Charlotte used by Joe and Ian only. =)
Posted in Hidden Beneath The Smile, The Storyteller's Series
Ah Nah They Didn't!
Posted in YouTube-ies
“Smile~!” said a voice behind a camera. A click and a flash captured a portrait of a young girl with flawless skin and a smile that would brighten any person’s day. The picture in the camera would still look perfect, even though it was actually a candid shot.
“Adam! I told you I don’t like candid pictures, I wasn't even ready!” whined the girl carrying a stack of thick Biology textbooks in her arms.
“My bad Charlotte, my bad hahaha. Trust me you don’t need to get ready, you were always ready” said Adam, raising his arms up to show surrender with a smirk upon his face.
“Ugh... Alright, you better not delete it, I want to see it later” said Charlotte with a hint of annoyance in her voice.
BRIIIIIIIING!! Saved by the school bell, Adam was able to escape before Charlotte gets a hold of him with her attitude. He turned back and started walking away from Charlotte, gripping his camera in his hand ready for another shot of photography. Just few steps walking away, “Adam…… wipe off that smirk of yours” giggled Charlotte. Adam stop dead in his tracks, Ah! She did it again. How did she know that? he thought. He looked back and saw Charlotte showing her tongue out and stride away.
“She’s one…weird girl.” Adam said under his breath, as he scratched his head and watched Charlotte walking to her next class in the distance.
Posted in Hidden Beneath The Smile, The Storyteller's Series
Hidden Beneath The Smile [Synopsis]
one of her many friends would solve the puzzle and see the true reflection beneath her smile?
Posted in Hidden Beneath The Smile, The Storyteller's Series
Now taking out the Relax Card that I've been saving the whole year as a reward for a good job in finally passing through the exams phase. Recently I have been thinking and i am willing to trade in 1/3 of my Relax Card opportunities for the next stepping platform in life. The next stepping platform that basically having the grip upon the occupation for me in the later life. Yes, the trade in is for stepping on to the world and experiences of college from the world of high school. Though all would be dearly missed, the juniors, the teachers, the principal, the staffs, the facilities and of course the memories that we have engraved in our previous school (SM YSHHB ). This new chapter in life is what the exam was worth doing.
College. Wow...i just realized that HAHA . So Yup, college. Actually there isn't much for me to say about it. I'm nervous and the term have not even begun. Well, I kinda got accepted before the end of the year to Meragang College ( Pusat Tingkatan Enam Meragang/ Meragang Sixth Form )....please readers i am clearly not trying to be vain here (if that's what you're thinking, well..i'm not). I'm just very thankful i could get into college.
Though i got through the registration phase, the subjects are what holding back my dream..well, i guess my dream was crushed on the day i was given the "wake-up call" for choosing the subject and where in the real world i would end up with. Being in the medical stream was my dream since i was young ( well i'm still young, come on 16 coming on to 17. That's not old. Back to when i was young-ER ), doctors, nurses, pharmacist. That dream is now crushed to fragments but those fragments what will become my hope to achieve. The thought of ending up in the medical stream is now out of my head and i seem lost. Maths was the one i'm lacking of. And it was Maths that hold me back from the walking down my dream. A career counselor from the college gave me an advice and an option to choose what subjects that i would be capable of. Maths, the one subject that he mention to almost all subjects, namely Chemistry, Physics and to careers, Doctors, Pharmacist, Nurse, Engineers. Maths. I love it, but IT hates me. During exams, i stumble onto mistakes but for revisions it seems an average can-do subject. Maybe Maths is not in my blood, but as so i wish it would.
Over all i would like to thank the career counsellor for showing me the truth of how maths is so important, the advice he gives changed my so to speak attitude towards subjects =)
Despite the Maths problem, the subject that i will be taking by starting for the new term is. Biology, Geography, Psychology, Business and English (which is a compulsory, which i will surely enjoy =) ). These subjects are for the start-off term. And after i receive my Oct/Nov O'level results and accepted into the college again, teachers recommend to drop off one of the subjects that seems not to my capabilities. So, at the end, only 4 subjects are to go on for the exams of A'levels. Hopefully it will all go well. Especially for Biology, Psychology and English those must be my favourite subjects and i'm willing to excel in it.
Allah the Almighty please be with me!
So, long story short. I'm trading in 1/3 of my O'level holidays for start-off college year. Some students may think it's crazy to start school in January when it's supposed to be a holiday..(Oh No, my birthday's in January..school..aww mahn=/ ) and some may say " relax relax". I think i have done a lot of relaxing time already. 3 days relaxation is enough for me, let alone 3 months?? My fingers won't know how to write in that time period! Starting college early has it's advantages, early start and by the time March enters with new students that subject will be scanned through again. But to every advantage there's a disadvantage. The catch to going into college in January, that when the results are out in Feb the staffs will look through the results and if you made the requirements, no change is needed. But when it is not made with the requirements, it's down back to high school even if you entered the college in January *GULP* i know.
*sigh* I CAN'T WAIT FOR STATIONERY SHOPPING!!!!!!!
Posted in College Moments, Life's Experience, Me and Around Me, Me and My Life
Out Of The O'Level Boot Camp
The last exam experience was full of anxiety yet...the fear was not there for me..well at least it was there for Maths. But that fear that supposed to be hanging on to you in examination was not there with me. The fear that makes you study more and more and more. Instead, i seemed to treat it like a normal End Of Year exam, which in this case bad. As some people prepare for the exams by reading ahead a month before the exams begin, but the way i do it, if having the last minute touch ups.
I'll be honest with you readers, i'm not such of a bright student nor the top in the class, just the average willing to learn student. And revising ahead of time, doesn't do good for me. I mean it's like you revise the first day and you remember it for the whole week but when it comes to the last minute exams revisions you forget things and you have to start over again and the attempt may cause a skip in one of the topics. So the way i do it is to revise 2 days before or the night before on the hour before the exam. It's bad, i know. Though it pretty much helped me in the exams and went through it quite the way i want it to be (except Maths.. the struggle, it hurts), but i have to change the way i study to make sure that does NOT become a bad habit.
I tried many revision methods, eg. m-i-n-d-m-a-p-p-i-n-g (too much of a treasure hunt, the further i go in the further i get lost in the topic), flash cards ( i forget the previous after 5 cards), bright colours & illustrations to understand the topic ( it helped me but it depends on what subject) and P.N.U.M.O.N.I.C.S (That hardly works for me, trust me i've been trying to get it but with my Chemistry teacher..impossible..well not impossible just difficult).
I think it's best for me to stop right here about the past exams. As some people say,
"When you reminisce what was done, you will tend to regret it"-some people
Posted in Holiday, Last Day Again, Life's Experience, Me and My Life, Memories
Eventhough there were some weekends when I was free, but after a whole week of intense revision, menace and drama around school and those Mondays when there was no chance of sitting in class, the whole day the students would either run, jogged, power walk to our different classes which takes place at different places of the school...and we all end up exhausted before the last period of the day AHAHA
After all those extra classes. tuitions, revisions.. I am now in the midst of the October/November O'level examination. Papers went well and there were some tiny bits of doubt, but what's done is done. All I can do now is to get ready for the next paper. There's been news spreading about a leakage for the question papers for Chemistry 2 because of a clash in the time table. It was hetic. Just hope there won't be any retest, because it won't be fair for THOSE who took the paper truthfully. Not those who leaked it out and cause a whole night's drama. If there's a retest then give it those who leaked it. Don't give us the punishment that we don't deserve. NOT FAIR....don't try to say life is not fair. In this case, it will affect our future.
There were also news about the Form 6 admission will start early on January next year than what the admission that usually start in March when the results are out. Heard the news a few days ago. And the early admission might be compulsory. My friends and I disagree with this. It was supposed to be a choice, either start the Form 6 early or at a later date in March. We were looking foward for the 3 months holidays for the whole year. It's not what we had in mind at all. At all. Better not make it a real must. It ain't fun you know.
Well, i should stop this post. Tata~
Posted in Me and Around Me
I might feel tired because i just remembered there's extra class tomorrow eventhough it's a holiday (but it's worth it) and tuition at night. That feeling of anxiety kills the mood sometimes.
Have you ever felt the time goes by longer when you're waiting and feeling tired at the same time? It's annoying right? Hell yeah it is? But until you find something to do, time goes by pretty fast. Which is what i'm doing now, blogging...waiting for the time to pass by.
Posted in Me and Around Me, On The Go
Yes readers, it's just the first day of the extra classes that i'm going to have and i'm already very exhausted. Moody at the same time too, things around me just get even annoying [coz' sister is to blame].
Well, the first exra class went well..only that i had the feeling of laziness that you get on the first day to the holiday. *sigh* Tired. Now i just can't wait for the Raya day to come! New clothes, new shoes and [HELLO!] Road trip!
Okay, i'm going off now, today's really tiring and it just drains all my energy. But it was all worth it. Oct/Nov O' Levels are coming very soon.
Tata~!
Posted in Holiday, Me and My Life, School Days
Hey readers, i'm back but only for this announcement. As you can realized...my last post was about the World Cup and that was about a month ago. Yes, inactive...i know. There goes to say, i'm very busy this year. Just look how many posts i posted up this whole year -few.
I've just done with my last mock exam and now waiting for the big one. O'Level's. The international examination that will determine your future. Now is the time to crunch, bite, cramp, stuff in with all the studies.
My May/June was a bit disappointing just got 3 O's out of 6 subjects. As usual, it's Engish, Geography and Biology. Just a 'B' and 'C' s. Still struggling with Maths, Malay just a work on the paper 2 and oral, Physics...the pratical was -Crap. So now, since i am familiar with my weakness, i'm concentrating on the subject.
I've been attending tuition which is helping out alot, extra classes too. Also, it's the holiday season now, but now for me or my classmates...we're haveing extra classes during the holidays too. We actually requested for it. Better to learn in school than at home where i usually get distracted.
Few days ago i had my November Malay orals. Alot of anxiety before my turn. It all went well, got some stuttering but i was able to answer and my reading was fine. I think i'm satisfied with it. Now, i just can't wait for the English orals which we'll be having in a month's time...why? I want my English orals now! =.=
I'll have to go now, tuition for geography and later chemistry. Will update when i can, maybe through mobile phone (On The Go Blogging)
Tata, Happy Holidays and Selamat Berpuasa (i know it's been weeks and only days left til the end of the puasa month, but hey, a late greeting doesn't hurt) ;)
Posted in Life's Experience, Me and My Life
"Gaan ~ Suid-Afrika!"
And the match ended with a tie of England 1 - 1 USA.
So readers i know it's boring, but i'm so busy with the World Cup matches! AHAHAH! =D
Adios now readers =D
Posted in Me and Around Me
"Life is rhythm, football is rhythm and I feel the rhythm when I am in South Africa." - Sepp Batller
"We at FIFA are working very hard in South Africa with South Africa to ensure that the World Cup will happen in South Africa."- Jerome Valke
Wow. Have you ever heard someone said the word "South Africa" 3 times in a sentence?
Posted in Me and Around Me
When Dreams Get Weirder
"When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality." -Dom Helder Camara
Somehow the dream took me to my school (SMY) at the main gate, everything seems normal there, only it looks like we have alot of visitors from different form 6 schools and also visitors for England judging by what i heard in my dream, was pure strong British accent. I guess our students were told via speakers to go to the lecture hall, so i followed the students up the main stairs and i saw Dr. Loji (our principal) with some other "important" people. I wanted to go up the stairs which leads to the form 5 classes, but in my dream...there was no stairs at all. It was a big elevator! But before i went in the elevator i greeted Dr. Loji, but his reply to me was shocking! He replied with "Hey gurl~ how ya doin'?" and did those finger movements my friends used to do. I can feel myself being weirded out, i asked myself, "Was that really the principal?"
I ignored it before things could get even weirder with the principal. So i went in the elevator and when it opened it showed me..what it was supposed to be the lecture hall in my dream. The lecture hall in my dream was not even close to what it looks like in reality. It was huge! It was big as the Jerudong Park Amp! It looked like a place where an ochestra would play their melody in! There were huge crowds of stidents from different school and they all seated according to their school. When i sat down and looked around i saw two of my ex-seniors; Auji and Nazmi, sitting still with their spectecals on while writing down notes of the principal's speech (even in my dream his speeches are long and boring, can't help to wonder why ahahah). There was no words coming out from either of my ex-seniors, but there was blabbering in the background, it must have been the principal speech ahhaha.
The speech finally ended and the students were excused from the huge lecture hall. I guess i went out into a field where there were people playing rugby...not to mention, i saw my friend Zaff. Then there was a market place at the side of the field that caught my attention. I went in...and it was a kind of black market. People selling weird and creepy things. Then i saw something in a cage, something with wings of a bat and glowing red eyes...
I woke up so suddenly, it was a long dream, slept at 11pm woke up at 9am...that was long. I can still remember the dream clearly. It was an interesting dream, but also weird =P
One of my favourite things about dreams, is that i can remember them well.."weird"
Later now, Bye.
Posted in Me and My Life, Unexplained