Livin' The Vida Life

“Smile~!” said a voice behind a camera. A click and a flash captured a portrait of a young girl with flawless skin and a smile that would brighten any person’s day. The picture in the camera would still look perfect, even though it was actually a candid shot.

“Adam! I told you I don’t like candid pictures, I wasn't even ready!” whined the girl carrying a stack of thick Biology textbooks in her arms.

“My bad Charlotte, my bad hahaha. Trust me you don’t need to get ready, you were always ready” said Adam, raising his arms up to show surrender with a smirk upon his face.

“Ugh... Alright, you better not delete it, I want to see it later” said Charlotte with a hint of annoyance in her voice.

BRIIIIIIIING!! Saved by the school bell, Adam was able to escape before Charlotte gets a hold of him with her attitude. He turned back and started walking away from Charlotte, gripping his camera in his hand ready for another shot of photography. Just few steps walking away, “Adam…… wipe off that smirk of yours” giggled Charlotte. Adam stop dead in his tracks, Ah! She did it again. How did she know that? he thought. He looked back and saw Charlotte showing her tongue out and stride away.

“She’s one…weird girl.” Adam said under his breath, as he scratched his head and watched Charlotte walking to her next class in the distance.

The whole year is coming to an end and as you can realize that my blog hasn't been much active this year but that is all coming to an end well for now. School work has made it's way to the teacher's desk, the exam papers are flown to Cambridge and soon to be burn down in a furnace after 3 months to leave space for the next batch ( i really wish the authorities would just give back the paper after they marked it. The purpose to learn from our mistakes is my reasoning).


Now taking out the Relax Card that I've been saving the whole year as a reward for a good job in finally passing through the exams phase. Recently I have been thinking and i am willing to trade in 1/3 of my Relax Card opportunities for the next stepping platform in life. The next stepping platform that basically having the grip upon the occupation for me in the later life. Yes, the trade in is for stepping on to the world and experiences of college from the world of high school. Though all would be dearly missed, the juniors, the teachers, the principal, the staffs, the facilities and of course the memories that we have engraved in our previous school (SM YSHHB ). This new chapter in life is what the exam was worth doing.


College. Wow...i just realized that HAHA . So Yup, college. Actually there isn't much for me to say about it. I'm nervous and the term have not even begun. Well, I kinda got accepted before the end of the year to Meragang  College ( Pusat Tingkatan Enam Meragang/ Meragang Sixth Form )....please readers i am clearly not trying to be vain here (if that's what you're thinking, well..i'm not). I'm just very thankful i could get into college.


Though i got through the registration phase, the subjects are what holding back my dream..well,  i guess my dream was crushed on the day i was given the "wake-up call"  for choosing the subject and where in the real world i would end up with. Being in the medical stream was my dream since i was young ( well i'm still young, come on 16 coming on to 17. That's not old. Back to when i was young-ER ), doctors, nurses, pharmacist. That dream is now crushed to fragments but those fragments what will become my hope to achieve. The thought of ending up in the medical stream is now out of my head and i seem lost. Maths was the one i'm lacking of. And it was Maths that hold me back from the walking down my dream. A career counselor from the college gave me an advice and an option to choose what subjects that i would be capable of. Maths, the one subject that he mention to almost all subjects, namely Chemistry, Physics and to careers, Doctors, Pharmacist, Nurse, Engineers. Maths. I love it, but IT hates me. During exams, i stumble onto mistakes but for revisions it seems an average can-do subject. Maybe Maths is not in my blood, but as so i wish it would.


Over all i would like to thank the career counsellor for showing me the truth of how maths is so important, the advice he gives changed my so to speak attitude towards subjects =)


Despite the Maths problem, the subject that i will be taking by starting for the new term is. Biology, Geography, Psychology, Business and English (which is a compulsory, which i will surely enjoy =) ). These subjects are for the start-off term. And after i receive my Oct/Nov O'level results and accepted into the college again, teachers recommend to drop off one of the subjects that seems not to my capabilities. So, at the end, only 4 subjects are to go on for the exams of A'levels. Hopefully  it will all go well. Especially for Biology, Psychology and English those must be my favourite subjects and i'm willing to excel in it.


Allah the Almighty please be with me!


So, long story short. I'm trading in 1/3 of my O'level holidays for start-off college year. Some students may think it's crazy to start school in January when it's supposed to be a holiday..(Oh No, my birthday's in January..school..aww mahn=/ ) and some may say " relax relax". I think i have done a lot of relaxing time already. 3 days relaxation is enough for me, let alone 3 months??  My fingers won't know how to write in that time period! Starting college early has it's advantages, early start and by the time March enters with new students that subject will be scanned through again. But to every advantage there's a disadvantage. The catch to going into college in January, that when the results are out in Feb the staffs will look through the results and if you made the requirements, no change is needed. But when it is not made with the requirements, it's down back to high school even if you entered the college in January *GULP* i know.



*sigh* I  CAN'T WAIT FOR STATIONERY SHOPPING!!!!!!!

Finally! I'm back!. Okay, I know it's really off due and i was supposed to blog out right after the O'Level exam is..dare i say it...OVER! Woot Woot! and that was...exactly 2 weeks ago. I've been meaning to blog out since the last day but..blame it on Blogger or maybe the internet connection, they didn't allow me to blog. When i logged in, they logged me out. It feels like i've been exile from the site...oh that better NOT happen. I will kill em'.

The last exam experience was full of anxiety yet...the fear was not there for me..well at least it was there for Maths. But that fear that supposed to be hanging on to you in examination was not there with me. The fear that makes you study more and more and more. Instead, i seemed to treat it like a normal End Of Year exam, which in this case bad. As some people prepare for the exams by reading ahead a month before the exams begin, but the way i do it, if having the last minute touch ups.


I'll be honest with you readers, i'm not such of a bright student nor the top in the class, just the average willing to learn student. And revising ahead of time, doesn't do good for me. I mean it's like you revise the first day and you remember it for the whole week but when it comes to the last minute exams revisions you forget things and you have to start over again and the attempt may cause a skip in one of the topics. So the way i do it is to revise 2 days before or the night before on the hour before the exam. It's bad, i know. Though it pretty much helped me in the exams and went through it quite the way i want it to be (except Maths.. the struggle, it hurts), but i have to change the way i study to make sure that does NOT become a bad habit.


I tried many revision methods, eg. m-i-n-d-m-a-p-p-i-n-g (too much of a treasure hunt, the further i go in the further i get lost in the topic), flash cards ( i forget the previous after 5 cards), bright colours & illustrations to understand the topic ( it helped me but it depends on what subject) and P.N.U.M.O.N.I.C.S (That hardly works for me, trust me i've been trying to get it but with my Chemistry teacher..impossible..well not impossible just difficult).


I think it's best for me to stop right here about the past exams. As some people say,


"When you reminisce what was done, you will tend to regret it"-some people

Wow, was it that long since my last post? 5th September?? That was still during the Ramadhan month! Wow..you can criticize me all you want but I have a very reasonable answer why this whole year I've not been blogging as much as I was last year. Answer; well if I'm not mistaken, there was a post regarding my big O'level exams this year and i'm having hard time to find an empty slot for blogging, obviously I couldn't find any.

Eventhough there were some weekends when I was free, but after a whole week of intense revision, menace and drama around school and those Mondays when there was no chance of sitting in class, the whole day the students would either run, jogged, power walk to our different classes which takes place at different places of the school...and we all end up exhausted before the last period of the day AHAHA

After all those extra classes. tuitions, revisions.. I am now in the midst of the October/November O'level examination. Papers went well and there were some tiny bits of doubt, but what's done is done. All I can do now is to get ready for the next paper. There's been news spreading about a leakage for the question papers for Chemistry 2 because of a clash in the time table. It was hetic. Just hope there won't be any retest, because it won't be fair for THOSE who took the paper truthfully. Not those who leaked it out and cause a whole night's drama. If there's a retest then give it those who leaked it. Don't give us the punishment that we don't deserve. NOT FAIR....don't try to say life is not fair. In this case, it will affect our future.

There were also news about the Form 6 admission will start early on January next year than what the admission that usually start in March when the results are out. Heard the news a few days ago. And the early admission might be compulsory. My friends and I disagree with this. It was supposed to be a choice, either start the Form 6 early or at a later date in March. We were looking foward for the 3 months holidays for the whole year. It's not what we had in mind at all. At all. Better not make it a real must. It ain't fun you know.

Well, i should stop this post. Tata~

I'm now waiting at a restaurant, tired. Moody might be emerging any moment...or maybe it's just not my day.

I might feel tired because i just remembered there's extra class tomorrow eventhough it's a holiday (but it's worth it) and tuition at night. That feeling of anxiety kills the mood sometimes.

Have you ever felt the time goes by longer when you're waiting and feeling tired at the same time? It's annoying right? Hell yeah it is? But until you find something to do, time goes by pretty fast. Which is what i'm doing now, blogging...waiting for the time to pass by.

" Give All Your Energy, To Gain Something You Aim For "

Yes readers, it's just the first day of the extra classes that i'm going to have and i'm already very exhausted. Moody at the same time too, things around me just get even annoying [coz' sister is to blame].

Well, the first exra class went well..only that i had the feeling of laziness that you get on the first day to the holiday. *sigh* Tired. Now i just can't wait for the Raya day to come! New clothes, new shoes and [HELLO!] Road trip!

Okay, i'm going off now, today's really tiring and it just drains all my energy. But it was all worth it. Oct/Nov O' Levels are coming very soon.

Tata~!

" Risk something, to achieve something "

Hey readers, i'm back but only for this announcement. As you can realized...my last post was about the World Cup and that was about a month ago. Yes, inactive...i know. There goes to say, i'm very busy this year. Just look how many posts i posted up this whole year -few.

I've just done with my last mock exam and now waiting for the big one. O'Level's. The international examination that will determine your future. Now is the time to crunch, bite, cramp, stuff in with all the studies.

My May/June was a bit disappointing just got 3 O's out of 6 subjects. As usual, it's Engish, Geography and Biology. Just a 'B' and 'C' s. Still struggling with Maths, Malay just a work on the paper 2 and oral, Physics...the pratical was -Crap. So now, since i am familiar with my weakness, i'm concentrating on the subject.

I've been attending tuition which is helping out alot, extra classes too. Also, it's the holiday season now, but now for me or my classmates...we're haveing extra classes during the holidays too. We actually requested for it. Better to learn in school than at home where i usually get distracted.

Few days ago i had my November Malay orals. Alot of anxiety before my turn. It all went well, got some stuttering  but i was able to answer and my reading was fine. I think i'm satisfied with it. Now, i just can't wait for the English orals which we'll be having in a month's time...why? I want my English orals now! =.=

I'll have to go now, tuition for geography and later chemistry. Will update when i can, maybe through mobile phone (On The Go Blogging)

Tata, Happy Holidays and Selamat Berpuasa (i know it's been weeks and only days left til the end of the puasa month, but hey, a late greeting doesn't hurt) ;)

"Gaan ~ Suid-Afrika!"

And the match ended with a tie of England 1 - 1 USA.

So readers i know it's boring, but i'm so busy with the World Cup matches! AHAHAH! =D

Adios now readers =D

"Life is rhythm, football is rhythm and I feel the rhythm when I am in South Africa." - Sepp Batller

"We at FIFA are working very hard in South Africa with South Africa to ensure that the World Cup will happen in South Africa."- Jerome Valke

Wow. Have you ever heard someone said the word "South Africa" 3 times in a sentence?


In about 13 hours from this post, TV stations (ie. Astro) all over the world will be broadcasting the game live! It's the time when football (soccer NOT rugby) fans go crazy, cheering for their chosen country, buying the football jersey to support the country and of course, sacrifice their sleeping time for the sake of the game. People waited every four years for this event, just like the Olympics. Only that this event is focusing on one sport. FOOTBALL.

"When we are dreaming alone it is only a dream. When we are dreaming with others, it is the beginning of reality." -Dom Helder Camara

I'm experiencing weirder dreams day by day and i don't know how to explain it. The dream i had that was the weirdest by far happen two nights ago, and the dream felt a pretty long time.

Somehow the dream took me to my school (SMY) at the main gate, everything seems normal there, only it looks like we have alot of visitors from different form 6 schools and also visitors for England judging by what i heard in my dream, was pure strong British accent. I guess our students were told via speakers to go to the lecture hall, so i followed the students up the main stairs and i saw Dr. Loji (our principal) with some other "important" people. I wanted to go up the stairs which leads to the form 5 classes, but in my dream...there was no stairs at all. It was a big elevator! But before i went in the elevator i greeted Dr. Loji, but his reply to me was shocking! He replied with "Hey gurl~ how ya doin'?" and did those finger movements my friends used to do. I can feel myself being weirded out, i asked myself, "Was that really the principal?"

I ignored it before things could get even weirder with the principal. So i went in the elevator and when it opened it showed me..what it was supposed to be the lecture hall in my dream. The lecture hall in my dream was not even close to what it looks like in reality. It was huge! It was big as the Jerudong Park Amp!  It looked like a place where an ochestra would play their melody in! There were huge crowds of stidents from different school and they all seated according to their school. When i sat down and looked around i saw two of my ex-seniors; Auji and Nazmi, sitting still with their spectecals on while writing down notes of the principal's speech (even in my dream his speeches are long and boring, can't help to wonder why ahahah). There was no words coming out from either of my ex-seniors, but there was blabbering in the background, it must have been the principal speech ahhaha.

The speech finally ended and the students were excused from the huge lecture hall. I guess i went out into a field where there were people playing rugby...not to mention, i saw my friend Zaff. Then there was a market place at the side of the field that caught my attention. I went in...and it was a kind of black market. People selling weird and creepy things. Then i saw something in a cage, something with wings of a bat and glowing red eyes...

I woke up so suddenly, it was a long dream, slept at 11pm woke up at 9am...that was long. I can still remember the dream clearly. It was an interesting dream, but also weird =P

One of my favourite things about dreams, is that i can remember them well.."weird"

Later now, Bye.